hellos(:

Teachers' Day celebration '11

2011-09-01T21:27:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

Today generally went quite well:

No lessons today
Performances are interesting
Have lunch with jie
Borrowed a book
Slacking now
No school tomorrow

That's all for today folks!

thisisEILEEN
signing off

funny dad

2011-07-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

DAD:你去学校做什么？
ME: 上学咯！

Yup this is the convo i had with my dad before he is wiling to send me to school. Yea i have epic parents.

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EILEEN

butterflies in heart

2011-07-13T19:35:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS SO COMPLICATED!!!

&& I just dunno what to do now D: *cries*

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PS: retail therapy anyone?

2011-07-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

So yeah got back maths today. It was disappointing D: So now my tuition teacher don't want to teach me already so my maths is D-E-A-D. Some more they say the next few chapters will be more difficult. Any good tuition teacher to recommend? Sigh...

Econs was okay i guess. LOL i just passed but i never even study econs oops. But Mdm Leong say the H1 student did better than H2. Dunno how true sia maybe just 安慰 us only. Dunno don't care lah.

Anyway after this common test i realised that i really need to study. D:

PE was horrible. Cos our class don't have badminton players so many of us including me were like publicly humiliated. It was quite funny though.

In conclusion, today was horrible.

itsmeEILEEN
suckstobeme

first day of school

2011-07-11T22:11:00.001+08:00

Finally went back to school. LOL today is finally considered as the first day of school after resting since the end of maths exams which is like last thursday. But i still don't miss school leh staying at home can slack and watch show :D

LOL actually i was watching My princess one, but knowing me and how i love spoilers i gave up halfway and went to dramabeans to read spoiler hehs. LOL the show was kinda predictable and got something like betrayal from family so i didn't really like it even though i know that in the end they girl will still be a princess Lee Seol but i can't stand how the sister Lee Dan harm her so i gave up watching it. But the scenes are very nice:D if i were to watch again will be for the beautiful rooms ba.

I got back some papers today. I think i am quite pleased with them. I finally passed GP BOTH ESSAY AND COMPREHENSION okay? hehe although it may not very high but this is the first time i passed my essay.

Next i got back history. I wasn't happy of sad with the result cos i know i didn't put much effort in studying history. Basically i only studied history the day before the exams. I just passed for both SEA essay but failed the Cold War essay. Well at least for the COld war essay i never hit the lowest grade okay. LOL. The new history teacher Mrs Dayna Chia is freaking cool. Hopefully my history will improve considering now i like the teacher and she is not as scary or rather creepy like Mr Chiang who expect us to be CONTENT MONSTER. OH GOSH.

I got back chemistry too. Well as expected i failed. At first i didn't really have much feelings towards the paper but thinking back comparing this paper to other chemistry tests i took i realised that i improved a lot. Like 50% from the previous test. Yea then i got quite excited and happy. Well i am glad i attempted the planning question cos it saved my life. It was kind of lucky cos i used the most stupid method and it worked and i only took 10 mins. Well one thing i learned is not to think too much and just do. LOL i proudly showed my marked to my mum and told her to praise me for improving hehs. Oh today i passed my MC to Mr Tiah he never Gl me leh! hehe amazing sia maybe cos i improved in chemistry :D I practically guessed my way through the whole paper A with C and turned out C is right hehs. YAY.

Maths was... Okay i kind of expect i won't get my A but my tuition teacher's sms kind of make me sad. He was like saying he tried his best to teach us so he is very disappointed D:. Hopefully tomorrow when i get back the marks it won't be very far from A. D:

希望明天会更好！！！

itsmeEILEEN

shouldibehappyorsad?

sprained right ankle

2011-07-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

Great! i think yesterday walked too much then this morning totally cannot walk i totally hopped around. i went to the polyclinic in the morning with my mum then she got me to sit on the wheel chair. Its kind of fun getting pushed around but the wheelchair quite hard to control leh. Dunno how the GLEE club people dance around in season 1. Anyway i went to the polyclinic with a painful ankle and left the polyclinic with a painful ankle and an painful arm. FML. my mum made me take a jab apparently it can prevent cervix cancer and its for girls 10 to 25. But this time the injection quite okay lah. Maybe i got use to injections le.

Doctor: so what can i do for you?

Me: Erm give me MC?

HEHS. The doctor quite generous, immediately gave me 2 days MC :D So guess i have to give sports carnival a miss. Sian first interhouse now sports carnival. D:

Then after about an hour in polyclinic, i went to chinese doctor. OMG damn painful sia i kept screaming but never cry:D He say if 2 days later not pain then no need come back. I really hope i will recover by then cos i have to march during NDP NE show 1 for all the small kids. D:

I shall go watch some drama to cheer myself up :D or i can read city hunter manga. hehs.

itsmeEILEEN
whocan'twalk

injured ankle

2011-07-06T19:18:00.000+08:00

First day back to school for learning fest or something. It's not as boring as i thought it was, the interview skills was interesting cos the speaker was funny but the second part i was kind of distracted talking to celeste opps.

Then the speak good english talk makes me feel like i am in kindergarten. (see celeste i can spell kindergarten without checking anything hehs) Yea i learned to pronounce words properly lol.

The last part of the day was soccer training. I dunno how long never play soccer liao damn cui (okay lah i am not very good to start with but then now really deteriorate like shit and the best part is, i sprained my right ankle. LOL my left ankle just recover not right ankle gns. hopefully it will be okay soon marching in NE show 1 D: cannot throw face. >.<

Should i go chemistry tuition today? Damn sian go so many le still fail i feel super stupid ): My mum everyday nag at me about my chemistry i know she mean well but its very irritating. I want to study chemistry but my results kind of demoralised me makes me don't feel like studying. Maybe i should change to one to one tuition. Any recommendations?

People who see my mum before should know she is very different. LOL last night she kept asking me about guys =.= She seems to want me to find a boyfriend. but my dad is against me having a boyfriend now anyway i now also nobody want so yea he no need to worry. only now need to keep hearing my mum ask me lorh. Like daily dose. sigh.

Okay with my injured ankle i shall limped to bras basah. BYE

itsmeEILEEN

withasadlife

drama

2011-07-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

After exams i went straight into holiday mood... *guilty* teehee then i got bored and started watching dramas. After finishing dongyi i started on City Hunter. At first i didn't know what to watch then nicholette say on facebook say city hunter is nice with romance and action. (I was more interested in the romance portion than action hehs) Anyway then i went to read the synopsis which i dun really get. I didn't really want to watch the show until i see the actors. LEE MIN HO!!! OMG he is freaking cool in this show :D the girl so lucky cos he so nice to the girl. But the sad thing is the show haven't end yet now only until episode 12 so cannot faster chiong finish the whole drama. I CAN'T WAIT FOR EPISODE 13!!! i wonder how he will save the girl. YEA the action in the show is very cool and nice :)

Even the poster is COOL!

Anyway i continued my Love keeps Going. I think episode 6 will be nicer:) At first i didn't want to watch until wang tell me got mike he. LOL MIKE HE~~ He damn good looking. I love his shows.
Haha i guess i watch show because of actors nowadays. That because i watch too many romance show le i kind of can guess what will happen. it is how the actors show the scene which makes it better.

me likes mike he:D

Yea talking about actors i think it is important how they pose in front of the camera. Some actors can really make really good poses which makes then cool. Mike He is really good at being the devil and then being mean. i like his mean smile hehs.

Also Zhang Han who act as murong yuhai the lead of this china version of boys over flowers he wasn't very handsome at first but the more i see him, the cooler he gets because of his wonderful poses :) Jia Mei introduce me want. then she force me watch the preview which got me hooked. This show the storyline is the best among all the boys over flowers show. It is the most realistic. But the sad thing is the cars they have not very nice leh. And the second lead Yu Hao Ming i don't like how he look but luckily in the meteror shower 2 he cut his long hair then look better. Oh he is the guy that was in the explosion with selina. I like meteror shower1 better than meteror shower2. although they are continuous but i don't know why but it seems like the personality of the characters changed then not very nice le. meteror shower 2 i only watch to finish the show.

I learned recently that talking about dramas will never go wrong if you don't know what to talk about. Hehe so i shall watch more. hehs no lah, its cos it is enjoyable too. i am a couch potato except watching from my laptop is cheaper then watching DVD on TV. But when school reopens, i mean when lessons start i cannot live this kind of life le D: Hopefully i can get use to studying again. LOL i had maths tuition on Sunday. Although exams ended on thursday but i haven't been touching book and when i had to do math it feels a bit like my brain is unable to work. Sigh. still got a lot of maths homework undone. But i rather do maths so it became kind of like my excuse when my mum tells me to study chemistry. Sigh.

Okay whatever enough of my sad life. i shall go out today to enjoy myself. ME IS GOING OUT WITH TIAN TIAN AND TING TING. hehe we are watching...

Hopefully it will be nice. I love chic fic :D

LOL this whole post show how lazy i am watching shows and drama. But whatever i should enjoy myself whenever i can. I shall go bathe then prepare to go out :)

EILEEN

exams over

2011-07-03T10:57:00.004+08:00

so YUP EXAMS ARE OVER:D maths was alright i guess not say very difficult hopefully i won't disappoint my tuition teacher and my parents cos maths is my only hope. Oh well. Anyway after that went to eat pepper lunch with sweeyee and drink starbucks. I went home and watch DONGYI YAY i am finishing that drama.

The next morning i was supposed to go shopping with my mum cos maths tuition cancelled but in the end we decided that since we are both feeling lazy, we shall stay at home and watch DONGYI. HAHA i love my mum. then went out at about 4 plus to meet my guides darlings. miss them a lot the last time we meet was to study now was to play. We went to walk walk then ate sakae buffet and talked a lot.

i really love this pic so i just the EXTREMELY LARGE hehe.

Yesterday i went for ndp, it was tiring cos of the route march but i shouldn't complain cos i never march at the front. hehe. but it will be my turn next week. Hopefully no route march:D i always enjoy the dinner after that with the leaders. They are funny and friendly. Being a reserver talking to te other reserves was also fun they are funny people:D

Woke up late today cos was really tired yesterday. sigh got maths tuition at 4 today. i want to go out before thatD: i shall pester my dad:D

LOL i realised when i am angry, i can write better:D RIGHT XINTIAN? hahaha i will show u guys next time when the time is right and when this thing is over.

endingsimple
justEileen

maths cts

2011-06-30T09:09:00.001+08:00

i have a feeling that today will be a good day:D

i get to sleep until 自然醒
it is raining hence my home is cooling
a nice breakfast awaits me
i feel like doing maths
IT IS A LAST DAY OF EXAMS

Teehee, okay that's all for now i shall do some maths to warm up:D

lovesfromaHAPPYgirl
that'smeEILEEN

maths

2011-06-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

Fortunately, Maths is my favourite subject currently. Or else i will slack today off. . One thing i like about exams is that i get to wake up late and end school early. The downside comes after i get back my results. Well I am practically screwed for this common test so hopefully math can be my lifeline.

Anyway i decided not to change my blogskin cos i can't find a nice one and i kind of like the tagline:D Maybe if i can think of a new one than i consider changing. Okay i shall continue mugging maths MY ONLY HOPE.

EILEENtheNERD
lulalalulalalulalulaleh

screwed life

2011-06-28T18:00:00.001+08:00

This blog is soooooo D-E-A-D/ Perhaps i should change my skin again and attempt to revive it. LOL anyway school holiday is over. LOADS of stuff happened, Cord Hike, NDP... people come people go. School started with a BANG. literally! EXAMS. i really dislike exams cos i don't score well and that's because i don't like studying. oops. Monday was history (~~which i only started studying on sunday~~) and econs (~~which i never studied at all~~). Then today had chemistry (~~which i never passed before this year~~). See my life is screwed. Sigh this is so depressing... shall try to find a cheery skin to cheer me up and also escape from reality a while.

itsmeEILEEN
whoshouldjustdie

self-control

2011-04-25T22:32:00.001+08:00

Having self-control makes me happy :D Celeste lend me a Susan Mallery book today and christina want to borrow it she being a nice person, i decided to lend her although i read the book halfway. See i am nice right? :D

iamsooootired
ishallsleepnow

HAPPY SATURDAY

2011-04-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

Today is PLTC pre-camp which means that PLTC is only a week later. OMG I AM SUPER EXCITED HAHAHA. My 3rd year (well not 4th year like sweeyee and xintian) in PLTC and i have a different role every year and its quite fun gives me loads of different memories and i love them all. Well the lecture are interesting unlike school one cos its about scouting and guiding :D Anyway as course leaders i don't really have much to do today except facilitate discussion. I think i did a super bad job kimberley say i guided too much D but my patrol is like so quiet and slow and i can't stand it. I really dislike discussions which leads to no where. D: oh well like ruiyang say i need to bring out the 'fatherly figure' in me and be stricter. LOL JUST AS I THOUGH I AM FIERCE ENOUGH. oh whatever i hope i can do a good job i shall just do my best D: ADVISE ME PEOPLE!!!

After the pre-camp i went to my FDIC BBQ. The people there are so EPIC!!! HAHA i kept laughing. We played many weird funny games like the 'how many meh meh jump over the fence' kind. Apparently they call it mind fuck game. (sorry i didn't mean to use it but i really dunno what is these type of games called and the FDIC people call it that so yeah) I am quite bad at these type of games cos i can never get it. BUT i am glad that i managed to answer some :D Anyway i managed ask them one, the one which yiting taught me during Jamboree teehee. Not every one got it:D lalalalala HAPPY:D teehee i believe it will get everything one day :D DO TEST ME!!! Anyway another highlight of this bbq was the 'swimming' session. HAHAHA well, many people were pushed down the pool as the pool is conveniently beside the bbq pit and it is like some personal pool. well the condo bbq cum pool design is damn nice but I can't find the pic D: Well this make me feel like organising a bbq party at my house. ANYONE INTERESTED? hahahaha.

Okay i better try to do my maths tuition homework. Sian i tried to do it during the pre-camp but epic fail got a lot of blanks D: i hope i will know how to do them tomorrow shall try it after my (last ASPEN) chemisty tuition. (kinda impossible to complete maths but no choice still must do) Maths tuition 6 to 10 tomorrow evening, i hope i don't fall asleep. WISH ME LUCK!!!

loveGUIDES
loveSCOUTS

HOT

2011-04-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

SUPER HOT DAY TODAY!!! anyway its good friday so its a holiday but i still went to school at 9 in the morning. The song leaders training was okay, i am glad that the juniors are cooperative:D YAY hopefully they will continue to improve. Well they also changed my impression of scouts singing hehs.

After that i went to see my PLTC patrol tie their tower. It is not bad, it is standing. i hope they will be good during PLTC:D JIAYOU P4 NEON!!!

Slack at home for a bit chatting with sweeyee. It like so long since i talk to here, kind of miss her. AWWW. then i emo-ed a bit sian i really regret taking up so many stuff then like so busy not. STRESS!!! SIAN i dunno if i should continue with PSA cos like damn stress. Why people like think i sure get or at least got very high chance to get it. Later don't get how? D: That why i kept delaying the reply of the cord hike thingy. Sian i really hate disappointing people. Should i continue? Advice me people!!!

I cheered up a lot after going for 22 class outing :D LOL the guys never turn up but all the girls except 2 turned up :D Quite successful right! i kept laughing and joking around. OMG DAMN TIRED. We went to Vivo then ate at some high class chinese restaurant. HEHS cool right? then we went to play truth or dare which is retarded. HAHAHA ate Ben and Jerry's ice-cream, took some photos then go home :D

SO tired now tomorrow still got PLTC pre-camp. GOD 8 in school tomorrow D: MY MATHS TUITION HOMEWORK NOT DONE!!! Mr Teo is so going to pull out all my hair D: Hopefully i can do it during lectures tomorrow. Shall sleep now, damn tired!

theweirdME

help! D:

MADNESS

2011-04-21T22:29:00.009+08:00

Today i realised that i entered a crazy class. It was my craziest lap-counting experience. We practically screamed at even person we are counting for. Then after PE we started discussing class outing and made a random class outing tomorrow evening. I am extremely excited :D

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

*DO IGnORE THE BOTTOM!!! i am fan girl-ing hehs

2011-04-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

In a bad mood now. I really can't stand people who keep pushing away the blame when they are in- charge like WTH! GROW UP LAH! WASTE MY SMS. Please lah want to argue with me. sigh at least 2-3 more weeks of this nonsense. Hope the situation will improve.

My English really suck. LOL i took the SATS pre test today. Maths was great:D but the english part is a bit ... D: Well at least now my admission ticket is sent to me :D Well at least my tuition teacher say my SATS essay okay:D teehee. Okay i shall go find some entertainment to destress and release my anger.

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of course by spamming ZAYN PHOTOS:D Teehee i crop out the rest of the people:D

I shall end this blog post with ONE DIRECTION:D

MYmoodisTHOUSANDTIMEbetter

thanks to One Direction Zayn YAY

one direction

2011-04-19T19:43:00.004+08:00

Last night before i sleep i suddenly thought of the maths test i did yesterday and i realised i made 1 careless mistake. WTH! it is just one stupid sentence of 2-3 words. i really hope i will get half mark or something or maybe don't make anymore careless mistakes D:

Celeste lend me the GMH book and i think it is like so fake. I cannot believe celeste actually cried. Seriously? Yea there are some touching ones but there are some which made me laugh so can't cry hehs.

I got back my PI draft 2 today. Well it suck cos i made the amendments from the first PI draft and it still cannot make it D: WHY? Sian i really hope the third draft is okay D: Nevermind i shall spam photos on my tumblr and some here :D Watch out ZAYN ATTACK!!!

ZAYN IS SO CUTE!!!

theCRAZILYinloveME
withOneDirectionZaynDUH

why u change?

2011-03-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

Why do people change?

theDEEPLYinthoughtsME

which becomes the emo me

Friends

2011-02-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

Well i wasted the whole of today. Actually not really wasted just that i never do homework and stuff. Well mostly because after doing for scouts(or guides) stuff i usually don't really have the mood to study. Sigh how i wish scouting/guiding is graded D: CCAs are much more fun! ME WANTS MORE JIHES!!! hehs i am mad!

Anyway today was the PLTC meeting, basically just get to know the objectives and discuss with other course leaders about the ice-breaker games. LOL it feels like those COH times where my jie had meeting about juniors/activities except now there are guys. LOL

Today, really made me miss guides alot like my jie, all the tough and fun times we spend together, the tuanbu, my patrol-mates, thinking day presents etc. Its not only the 'COH' which made me miss guides also the tea-break with sherly and yiting too. It really feels like after jihe then we go Macs to talk. I think today kind of bond me and sherly together more cos i seldom talk so long with sherly some more the stuff are quite intimate. But i enjoyed it:D Well as for yiting, i think we really bonded after joining ventures together, going for the jamboree, initiation etc. I think we bonded even more than during PLTC. Hmm i wonder why? Maybe it's the activities or the events which happened recently?

Well that's not important the important part is it always feel good to find more close friends who would relate to you. You know you guys will be close friends when they are willing to tell you their secrets even before they are that close to you. It is amazing how friendships are forge, brought close or even brought apart. Maybe friendships are brought apart cos this 'close friend' isn't that close but you can never know a person well enough cos people change. One thing i really dislike is when 'close friends' lies. I mean its okay to have secrets but just that don't show that you have a secret and lie by using ridiculous excuses. Although i may seem a little unhappy about it but deep down i know that one day if that close friend needs me i will be there even if that friend may not really be there for me. That may sound cliche but i really mean it. Sometimes i really miss the good old day where friendships are pure with no hidden motive, no secrets, no lies, no backstabbing, no selfishness, no need to impress, and we can just say 'i don't friend you' to people you don't like.

LOL i realised this post seem kind of emo(AND LONG ZOMG) so i better stop now idk why i guess i am just having one of my weird mood now so mind me hehs.

theDEEPLYinthoughtsME

which becomes the emo me

CLOSE SHAVE

2011-02-25T22:07:00.004+08:00

YAY MY WORST TEST EVER!!! i got a F-ing 2.5/15 for chemistry. lol luckily got Mr Lok then Mr Tiah never blast OMG HENG SIA. Next chemistry test will be 2 weeks later on mole concept (again) and redox. SUCKS SIA i just can't get the equations D: GRRR!!! Sometimes i wonder why am i so STUPID D:

thestupidMEwhohatesLIFE

I WANT TO BE SMARTER

maths

2011-02-24T17:34:00.001+08:00

DAMN!!! i had my maths test today and i missed out a part of question 3 WTH!!! SHIT SIA!!! Grrr all my tests so far are FREAKING screwed! Tomorrow i will get back my Mole Concept test which i believe i will get ZERO!!! Mr Tiah promised to BLAST us so i supposed i will be D-E-A-D!!! DAMN SENIOR HIGH!!! SO much for Chemistry tuition.

theNEWimprovedME

I WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER

rants

2011-02-20T18:39:00.001+08:00

GOSH founders day and thinking day is this tues D: the best part is, i had PE and m day end late with loads of free period CRAP!!! Sigh maybe i should worry more about my history test tmr D: DAMN I REALLY HATE SENIOR HIGH LIFE! Luckily no need chiong tutorials tonight. I am starting to LOVE lectures because lecture = no need do tutorials :D YAY.

theNEWimprovedME

I WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER

revival

2011-02-17T18:50:00.007+08:00

oops i better blog again before my blog becomes dead again.

SENIOR HIGH LIFE SUCKS D: I really dislike lecture style of teaching i can't grasp anything. I am almost behind tutorials D: TIME!!! i need more of you D: grrr its test week again D: && people say chem test sucks. dammit! better start studying now. I AM A STUDIOUS GIRL STARTING NOW!!!

theNEWimprovedME
I WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER

mugging session

2011-02-12T13:03:00.003+08:00

So i ended up going to city hall and mug with xinxin and celeste yesterday. Can't believe i am so broke or else i bet i will buy loads of stuff. Gosh discounts everywhere. Well at least I never waste money :D

LOOK! this retarded photo is dedicated to smart from smarter :D right en?

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

chingay

2011-02-10T19:05:00.002+08:00

Stupid dammit! they call me tell me i have to attend both parades. WL say what have to review my case. now already Thursday tomorrow is the actual thing already. Before that still say okay ask me go for the training, then now say what cannot. MISCOMMUNICATION to the max! i wonder did they even convey messages. WTH waste my time make me explain my situation twice a day! they better not get another person to call me and ask me again and they inform me by tonight so i can make arrangements to go for 届 outing and make history notes with EN. WL if cannot then waste my time make me go late for my 团圆饭 and i also need to make extra arrangement for econs test make up. PISSED!

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

HOME EARLY

2011-02-09T15:40:00.001+08:00

it feels weird to be home so early today but never-mind i shall spend this time go do more notes:D My history reading is pilling up i will go summarise them:D i hope my Econs test just now was okay...

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

Econs Notes

2011-02-08T21:37:00.002+08:00

YAY i finished my Econs notes. Teehee after getting my macbook pro, i decided to make full use of it teehee. i love the Microsoft Words 2011 the notebook layout. MY ECONS NOTES LOOKS FREAKING COOL!!! i have decided to do all my notes using that:D

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

restart

2011-02-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!! This is my umpteen time trying to revive my blog. This time i shall prove xinxin wrong. Teehee. I shall at least post a short one. Anyway nothing much went on with my life except now JC life SUCKS!!! Well at least i have a macbook pro as condolence. SHALL STRIVE HARD AND DO WELL FOR SCHOOL!

*this photo is taken with xinxin with my mac :D lol at first i was like telling EN i will not cam-whore with Mac well look what had happened. && i am going to cam-whore with EN soon. hehs*

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

shopping

2010-12-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

I watched 下一站，幸福 this morning and its nice though quite sad. Usually i do not fancy sad shows but surprisingly i am able to accept this show. I think i will want to watch it all asap. hehs.

Anyway, my dad took half day leave and my mum took leave today so we went Orchard shopping today :D My brother surprisingly spent the most money buying his suit to wear for my God-brother's wedding. Teehee my dress will no longer be the most expensive one. YAY. My mum actually wanted to go Orchard to see the lightings which is quite lame.

Okay i want to watch TV le.

YOUcan'tchangeME
I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

CSI

2010-12-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday the dinner was okay. The food was acceptable and unlike other wedding dinner or 8 course mail it was that filling. As in it is enough but no like a lot until make me super full and have to skin the noodles part. Maybe its because i didn't want to eat so much. Anyway i met Justin Sim then was like smsing him the whole dinner. Thanks to the nonsense we were talking about the dinner was bearable. Oh i saw his mum and i have to say they have the same significant part on the face :D Teehee.

In the morning my parents brought me and my brother to CSI: Experience at Science Centre. I super long never go science centre already. Last time I will sign up for the science centre membership card then every holiday i will go science centre. Anyway the exhibition was cool with 3 cases to solve. It was quite easy cos basically they give u step by step then with common sense you should be able to solve it. But it is cool to see how investigators solve crimes and the crimes are interesting. I am so going to watch my CSI: Miami DVD. I stopped after the 1st episode cos i kind of don't get it XP yup i am stupid but i don't care.

Okay i shall finish my CIP proposal. Talking about CIP, i still dunno if i should go OCIP. Some advise please. I scared i cannot cope with all the stuff next year D:

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

sleepovers

2010-12-25T15:32:00.000+08:00

Its Christmas time, Merry Christmas people. Actually I didn't really feel the Christmas spirit when i went out for breakfast and shopping trip at metro just now. Hmm I wonder if it is just me. Anyway the shopping trip was great cos I found a pair of heels to match my dress:D YAY I love shopping.

Okay time for updates. I haven't been able to touch the computer for 2 days as I stayed over at my patrol chalet and went to wenxin's house late at night. To me 2 days is a very very long time but my dad thinks I am weird, but whatever.

Anyway I had a lot of fun during the patrol chalet on Thursday. It has been a long time since I see my seniors and juniors and talk to them. :D Anyway the chalet wasn't that bad only that we forgot to buy some stuff and had to get the seniors to buy for us XP. It is sad that the seniors cannot stay over D: Hopefully we can have more P7 oriole patrol outing and they can stay longer and more people can make it.

The venture's outdoor cooking jihe was fun on Friday. I went to the ghostly school in the morning and it feels like a Sunday. Anyway we cooked quite a lot of food. Chickens, bread, apples etc. I love the popcorns we make. It actually worked and turn out very nice:D I am so going to try it out at home.

Then after jihe, I was quite tired and lazy and actually I didn't want to go to wenxin's house. But cos my mum sending me so I just went. I played monopoly deal and won for the first time:D I didn't stay over at wenxin's house as much as I wanted too because my mum suddenly didn't allow.

Then next 'exciting' activity to look forward to will be class chalet. I hope there will be a lot of people and it will be a success.

Later I will need to go for some dinner at Roland's I hope it won't be boring and the food will be good.

Once again, Merry Christmas everyone.

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

bryan lols

2010-12-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

Okay today wasn't as free as I thought. I though I will end up staying at home. Well in the morning, I went to visit my grandfather with my grandmother, mum and brother. Then we went to tampines to visit Celeste at kikki k and got Celeste to help me buy a scheduler. I like it mainly cos the paper is white and it is COLOURFUL :D Then I saw this cool cool family calendar which I like but my mum say no space to put ): But it is so cool my whole family can like write their schedule on it and everyone will know. SMART invention right? hehs I feel like splurging on it since Celeste got like 40% discount. But still quite ex lah. Never mind the colourful scheduler is enough I shouldn't be greedy and spoilt.

Then in the afternoon I went to school for ventures meeting on the Friday outdoor cooking Christmas tea break. I am looking forward to it :D We discussed who buy what then in the end I end up buying next to nothing. lol. After that I went to play basketball with the rest. Very long never touch basketball already, luckily still can shoot near shots. LOL maybe its time to train my basketball skills at the half court near my house. Anyone wants to join?

Oh talking about exercise, I must really start soon if not now. Now top on my list is not to lose weight but to train my stamina. if I don't start early, initiation I will DIE a terrible death. Exactly one month left!!! GOSH time flies so fast, my holiday is ending D:

Oh I did something unbelievable today! I bet everyone will not believe me. I went to meet Bryan. LOL actually after the ventures meeting then I super bored and curious so I decided to go with yiting to find Bryan and Michelle. LOL then yiting and I reach there but cannot find them until super long late. hehs as usual I am mean and I wanted to get Michelle and Bryan to stand up and wave hehs. Anyway don't worry, no fights occurred, I didn't even shout at Bryan. See I am nice. Hehs now come to think of it, I cannot believe leh. I am so proud of myself. teehee anyway we were like talking about PLTC which is quite dumb so its like super long ago le and unhappy memories are meant to be forgotten. We wanted to play monopoly deal but some old cleaner dunno what is it then refused to let us play. LOL the auntie so lousy say what don't want us to gamble then say what cannot play games, damn lame sia.

Then my mum called me and I left very soon after that. Oh my mum told me I can get 25% discount for my MacBook Air. YAY she say her colleague have a discount card. YAY I love discounts now it will be easier to convince my dad to buy for me :D

Oh and yiting collected hers, mine and sweeyee name tag le. It looks very funny cos the green look very weird. Dunno lah and I still don't get why it took the HQ so long to make it.

Anyway tomorrow will be a busy day which will clash with each other. Tomorrow is the last orientation preparation day, 8 to 4, Hopefully everything will be fine and no mistakes are made. And in the morning I have Oversea CIP briefing, 9 to 12. I really dunno if I should go. Its kind of weird and I dunno if this briefing will be successful. Then I need to go to Geylang Serai Community Club by 2 to talk about the CIP of teaching old people how to use iPad. I need to discuss with the person in charge. I better find out how to go there sio. I hope everything will move on smoothly. After that I will have to go to the patrol chalet. Oh I have to find some one to help check in. I really dislike clashing schedules.

Woah this is a really long post!

YOUcan'tchangeME

I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

not bad

2010-12-21T19:39:00.004+08:00

I am seriously reconsidering taking PSA. I dunno cos there is super a lot of stuff to complete. I kept rereading the booklet and see the criteria again and again. Sigh making choices sucks.

Anyway today is Celeste birthday so I shall visit her workplace tomorrow to pass her her present and Dawn's present:D Tomorrow is one of the rare days during the holiday I am free. After visiting my grandfather, I shall visit Celeste. Then find Dawn. Hmm maybe I should find someone to go out with me tomorrow.

Anyone free tomorrow?

YOUcan'tchangeME
I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

[edit] I need to send the requirements of the badges I have to my senior so i went online to find. Then i realised that guides have a stalker badge. HAHAHA ownage. And i also realised that i am supposed to get more badges but the teachers never test us and give us D: I feel so cheated D: I have decided to get many badges in scouts to make my uniform nice nice. HAHAHA

And it turned out that I am not that free tmr, must go school for meeting D: but luckily only 3-4. [/edit]

2011 orientation

2010-12-20T20:48:00.003+08:00

My legs are tired after standing all day and walking around but I learned a lot today. From the 2 committees I have, it increased to 4 committees cos yiting's leg swelled up very badly yesterday D: Poor her then it also became poor me. I ended up having to do loads of briefing (actually mostly I am just repeating what I said LOL) but okay lah I only talked more to the gadgets people. Hopefully everything is better tomorrow. I strongly believe 明天会更好 hehehe.

My birthday is coming then I want a MacAir and my mum is like convincing me to ask my dad to buy for me. But i dunno leh like very bad ask my dad buy a so expensive thing for me some more like each year my birthday wish getting more and more expensive. I got a ipod touch this year and a SWATCH watch last year D: See first lah cos my dad only going USA coming Jan. *fingers-crossed*

I still owe Celeste a visit to her workplace plus shopping and I have go out with xinxin this holiday. Oh not forgetting Kylie and Jing Wen. I shall SMS them. Don't worry guys I have forget y'all. Sigh even without finding a job, I manage to keep my holiday schedule packed. I can only put off my working plans until next year.

I am looking forward to my P7 oriole chalet. YAY most of the seniors are going!!! Miss them and the lovely juniors too :DD

YOUcan'tchangeME
I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

thoughts

2010-12-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Hopefully everything will turn out fine soon. Sometimes i really dunno if i am doing it right. But just running looking forward without looking away from my target gives me courage to move on. Sometimes just do what you want and not consider so much other things makes things easier. I really hope i can do it but the truth and reality is harsh.

YOUcan'tchangeME
I WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME

ventures

2010-12-18T15:06:00.002+08:00

I learnt that sleep and shopping can cure stress, anger, frustration, headache and stomache (well, almost everything). Last night I was a total mess up. I really dislike having so many things (important stuff) in my hands. THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED ME LAST NIGHT!!! I owe you guys a lot!!! Sorry for many you guys sleep late D: I really have to learn to take responsibility. Having huge responsibility sucks. Well i am still coping with my life now.

YOUcan'tchangeME
I will always be the same.

DAY 1

2010-12-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

OKAY I FINALLY COMPLETE THIS NEW BLOGSKIN. I always reuse the old information from my old blogskin then paste it in the new one but when i was editing this blogskin, my stupid OLD computer died on me D: I want a new computer (actually i prefer a laptop) but i doubt my parents will buy for me. I want a mac air! I don't mind buying it myself. Somemore my dad going America then sure can get it at cheaper price right? Aiyah that is just a dream. Okay i waste a lot of time on this le better get back to the orientation proposal. Time to put my thinking cap on.

YOUcan'tchangeME
I will always be the same.

long lost

2010-12-11T13:04:00.000+08:00

teehee I have me neglecting my blog for a super long time. Well can't blame me cos I am not at home. 2 weeks cos I am overseas and 1 week cos I am in camp. Well perhaps I will update you guys about what I did there or perhaps I shall not. (most probably not) haha cos I am busy I owe many friends dates (yes dawn I am talking about you). Anyway I should really start planning what I want to achieve next year or else I will die in senior high (CRAP). okay got to go for my dentist appointment now. You know what i sudden feel that my blog is very girly. Okay I shall get a new blogskin soon. Till then...

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

hurt

2010-11-06T22:36:00.001+08:00

你一定要这么做吗? 我们都认识了这么多年,我刚刚才发现到原来你根本没有把我当朋友.因为朋友之间不是不应该有秘密的吗?我们不是应该跟对方分享秘密吗?算了你不想说我也不会逼你的,因为我也是因为没有尊重你的隐私才偶然发现到这个秘密了.想想看这已经不是第一次了,但上一次不是我自己发现到的,是你告诉我,虽然上次事情已经结束了你才告诉我但我却觉得很开心以为你真的把我当好朋友,现在我才发现到原来是我自己自作多情.其实我真的希望你能告诉我,说真的告诉我又那么难吗?算了!

Writing nonsense in chinese is fun hehsi shall go watch my show le i shall take this as practising chinese teehee.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Halloween party

2010-10-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

I went to my first halloween party ever today at Kellie's house

We played games (uno stacko, twister, wii)

We had bbq (mashmallow, garlic bread, sasuages)

We wore witch hats (purple, orange, black)

We had hair dye (orange)

We had FUN

I love today

I love parties

I love playing

YAY

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

back

2010-10-29T21:41:00.002+08:00

LOL okay after being on hiatus for super long i decided to come back blogging. Teehee i realised i blog more during exams than after exams hahaha. okay that's bad. LOL but you can't blame me, it's like i suffer so long then only until now i finally get back most (not all) of my life. okay so basically this is what i did instead of blogging :DD

movies
dramas
anime
manga
books
hanging out with friends
shopping
chatting

Now get why I don't blog? teehee

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

help

2010-09-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

I am afraid. I am scared. I am worried.

I think I did my best preparing but something deep down tell me I am lying.

I really tried.

I think I am prepared but I am afraid tomorrow I will realise actually this is not true.

What now? Nothing is going in.
I really want to get this over and done with.

HELP!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

just breathe

2010-09-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

EOY IS COMING!!! 加油 EVERYBODY!!!

just breathe and we will all be fine.

Bio, here I come!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

biology mugging day 1

2010-09-20T19:25:00.003+08:00

you eat, you’re fat. you don’t eat, you’re a freak. you drink, you’re an alcoholic. you don’t drink, you’re a pussy. you read, you’re a nerd. you don’t read, you’re stupid. you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. you let someone in, you’re easy. you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. you smoke, you think you’re cool. you don’t smoke, you’re a loser. you’ve had sex, you’re a slut. you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you’re a slag. you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. you can’t please anyone. ever.

(Source: -thisisyourbaptism)

Well , wanting to please everyone is plain stupid.
Just being yourself making yourself is smarter :D

Mr Ng finally sent the biology learning outcomes for the End Of Year so I have already started and completed about 1/27 of the topics. A long way to go. Wish me luck. I shall continue now. From now on most of my post will be short or maybe just only a picture but I will still update my photo blog :D The pretty picture helps me to de-stress and I love it :DD

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

mugging in national library

2010-09-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today I went to National Library at 8 to study with xinxin qiurui lester and chik. Hehe my mum sent me there. I realise I always get my parents to send to to places. My brother yesterday went to RGS for some workshop then he went himself didn't ask my parents to send him. LOL but I won't learn from him hahaha.

The study lounge open at 9 but when I reach there around 8, the is already a queue. I find it so ridiculous lah its not that there is a sales then everyone are waiting for the shop to open. Come on! This is national library its just a place for us to study. You know still got security guard there to ensure everyone is in queue and no one is cutting queue. So lame lah.

Then when we are finally in, I tried to save a seat then some stupid china women thinks I cannot hear her and I cannot understand Chinese then start complaining to her friend about us choping seat. WTF. Then in the end she also chop seat, put her stuff on the table then dunno go where for super long. HATE HER!!! Such a sucker.

I studied maths until 6.30 and I was having a headache from all the maths questions. I think this year EOY I sure die one. Oh BTW I realise I dislike the book choices in National Library cos they dontt have Rachel Gibson books. LOL maybe its fated.

Then I went to my grandma house. On the way, I saw this old woman around 50 or 60 like that. She wore and knee length boots, brown leather mini skirt, thick gold chain belt, shiny orange sequin spaghetti stripes and a bright orange scarf. Her hair is like orange brawn and she tie it in a high pony tail. OMG super disgusting. I was like trying hard no to laugh. I wanted to take photo but my camera will make a loud sound so cannot.

Okay I quite tired le shall go sleep now then wake up early tomorrow.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

exams coming

2010-09-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

I went to pasir ris library to mug with Celeste today. I went there after lunch. We did maths. Gosh now I am super worried for maths. I am so dead. EOYs die le. So many questions must take so long to so some more the best part is I realised i forgot how to do probability and matrix the two easiest topic. Good luck to me sia.GG.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

lazy

2010-09-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

Don't make me wait just because you know I will.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

crying

2010-09-16T22:16:00.001+08:00

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

epic day

2010-09-15T19:02:00.001+08:00

好的开始是成功的一半！

Today is an epic day.

During chemistry we got back our open book test and most people got like 6. A lot of people were horrified especially Lester who was traumatised. Zi Yang was quite stunned cos he was super quiet hahaha. Then Mrs Teng showed us the answer key and everyone started laughing. She marked our script with the wrong answer sheet. Best! So we didn't get out CA grade today.

Free period for CME and history today! Not bad. Jokes, games, laughter, chasing, suaning etc.

Okay I shall continue studying physics. Although I say I am giving up on physics but I really hope I will not fail this test. Looking forward for my holiday!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

malay test

2010-09-14T19:06:00.005+08:00

I am suffocating.

Looking at all my unfinished revision. Breathing rate increase.

Looking at all the lousy test results. Heart rate increase.

All the questions I don't know how to do. Practically dying.

Soon I will be hallucinating. Impending sense of doom.

I want to cry but no tears come out. All dried up.

Waking up every day dreading the upcoming exams. Numb.

Malay test was a horror. Physics didn't like me. I realise i didn't understand History. I really hate myself.

What's with my optimistic mood yesterday?

I'm learning to be thankful, and I'm learning to take one step at a time.
I'm trying to convince myself that things are not so bad, and I can get through all these and emerge as a stronger person.

It isn't easy to be strong.

Isn't easy to pretend it doesn't matter, when it really does.
Isn't easy to hold back tears when you know they're coming.
Isn't easy, but we just gotta learn.

I've got to learn to be strong.

I've got to learn to depend on myself, because when the world collapses there's only me and myself to rely on.
I've got to learn to face trouble thrown at me at the speed of light, because if not, I won't survive.
I've got to laugh and shrug it off, because laughing is better than crying, right?

Right.

There's so much more to learn, so long a road ahead.

Can't afford a break, because then the world's gonna pass you by.

That's how this world functions.

Xin Xin's blog

The world is cruel it never give us a chance to rest. And never can we afford to fall as we will be crushed by others who are moving up. Why? I always thought that I would be able to handle it. I am afraid to admit this but the truth is I just can't.

I long to be free one day. Where the air will be fresher. The skies are bluer. The grass are greener. All i do now is mug mug mug. Totally no life. I really want to faster get it over and done with.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

first day of school

2010-09-13T16:14:00.001+08:00

If "PLAN A" doesn't work out don't worry, there is still 25 letters left.

So the holiday ended and today is the first day of school. It is okay except I prefer the holiday and EOY is in less than 3 weeks!!! WAKE UP EILEEN!!! START STUDYING!!!

I had physics pop quiz although I got quite a lot of wrong, but I still pass and I am okay with it considering I am planning to give up on Physics and I only ~~studied~~ read the physics textbook this morning. Well, this made me reconsider maybe I shouldn't give up on Physics. Sigh I shall finish my Malay Homework then study a little for the upcoming physics test then focus on Bio today.

I also got back my bio test although it is not very well done, but at least it is better than the previous test and I studied real hard for this test and I did my best already. Sian I am just plain stupid.

You know nowadays I really have no mood to study and I really find no point in it but I know I will totally regret after EOYS. GRR STRESS!!! I really hate having a headache and I have been having one now since yesterday morning. WTF! I shall go running for a while than hit the books.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Last day of holiday

2010-09-12T10:33:00.001+08:00

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

2010-09-11T21:55:00.001+08:00

No matter how we try to be matured, we will always be a kid when we all got hurt and cry.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

Shopping

2010-09-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

I went shopping today. I got my mini shopaholic book. It is super expensive like 32 bucks plus after 10% discount. Yeah I got the big version cos that is the first version and I have no patience to wait for the cheaper version to come out. But hey I have been waiting for this book for ages. My dad bought for me cos I seldom buy books nowadays. BTW i am so getting some Rachel Gibson books hehs. I love mini shopaholic it is super funny and I believe that there will be another book coming out and I guess it will be Shopaholic in Hollywood :DD MINNIE IS SO CUTE!!! Oh I also bought a new ear piece cos my old one spoilt. Then I went for a buffet dinner. The food was great but not very fantastic and it cost 40 plus bucks but for every 2 adult dinning, 1 adult dines for free. I don't this it is worth it. But well my family do not need to pay cos I went with my old neighbours and this is kind of a farewell party for us so yay. Anyway it is late now but I don't feel like sleeping cos I am super full. Blame the desserts. They are all so delicious. Gosh I am putting on a lot of weight. MUST VISIT THE GYM TOMORROW!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

the only day I studied

2010-09-09T19:47:00.001+08:00

Something dumb happened. (if you know me well you will find this normal) I took the bus from the wrong direction today even though i been to that place before. Usually I will ask my brother (yes my younger brother) which bus stop is it but today I was lazy to ask and lazy to check the bus directory so i just took the bus. Then i took the bus the wrong way for like super long from my house until suntec then i realise. Yes i know i am dumb.

Anyway I went to the airport to study with my primary school friends. Well, i think it is quite productive :DD I did my chem notes.

Before going home i went to the library to return my books and of course borrow new ones (YAY) I found one Rachel Gibson book (double YAY). Oh i also learn from celeste today that mini shopaholic i here. I was like OMGOMGOMG!!! then my friends were like staring at me (oops) hahaha I am so going to buy it!!! OMG I can't wait to read it.

Okay I am going to read my books now. :x I feel so guilty I cos I didn't really study much this holiday. Oh well.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

quote

2010-09-08T11:50:00.003+08:00

Sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

feelings

2010-09-07T11:55:00.004+08:00

They say that noisy people are not serious. But they never know that behind those happy smiles and joyous laughters are a thousand kinds of pain which they tried to hide ever since. Laughter is not the best medicine. Sometimes it's just the best disguise.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

first day of September holiday

2010-09-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today I packed my room then went to the library to meet Celeste :DD We meant to study there but ended up reading hehs. We had lunch in New York New York and the food is great!!! (Oh sweeyee if you are reading this, we should order the set lunch next time. It is more worth it.) Anyway we went to borders and I continued reading my storybook while Celeste went to read her magazine. And I realised that the little black dress book is only about 11 bucks. OMG I am so going to get my dad to buy for me some Rachel Gibson books! Then xinxin called and as usual asked rubbish questions hahaha but I am nice to answer her okay! When Kellie finally arrived at Parkway, we went to my house which is one stop away by bus. Celeste was like complaining how we wasted 36 cents but Kellie and i didn't really care hahaha. Celeste was totally owned by us. Kellie and I make a good team :DD We went to the gym and exercised a little before using the steam bath. Then we went to the swimming pool and splashed around and Kellie took lots of photo for her book which she say she is going to give me one :D YAY although I slacked away today I am glad I get to read my books. Tomorrow I must really mug like mad. BTW I think I will get a sore throat soon DD:

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

swimming

2010-09-05T17:39:00.001+08:00

I went swimming today with my mum and went to use the steam bath again. This time was better cos i can breathe inside. LOL the first time i use it then i had difficulty breathing. Anyway i think swimming is more tiring than running. My mum keep telling me it is impossible. I still remember i use to be able to swim more than 20 lap of butterfly but now just a few laps to freestyle makes me breathless. Maybe my swimming skills has deteriorated. I should go have swimming lessons again.Oh well.okay that's all for today.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

September hike

2010-09-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

I woke up early in the morning to go to school for guides hike. We walked quite a long distance today i supposed cos my legs are super tired. We walked from Hort park to Vivocity, Rural hike and Urban hike. Maybe its because late night i jogged 6km too then my legs are even more tired. Well but it was fun so all the tiredness is worth it. I follow P5 sunflower and the people there are fun and crazy. Really had a lot of fun with them. Then after that on the way home sweeyee and i met ms ngau and ms tang. LOL it was interesting talking to them :DD Okay i am going to read my HOT magazine which i just bought.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, And Nobody

This is a little story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.
There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.
Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.
Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody’s job.
Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn’t do it.
It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

Friday with celeste

2010-09-03T20:44:00.001+08:00

After school I went to Celeste house. I wanted to either go home or go out with my mum but my mum didn't pick up her phone so after a last minute decision, i ended up hopping on the MRT with Celeste to Pasir Ris. We were famished when we reach White Sands. She introduced me to this tiny Japanese restaurant and we ate don. I ate eel and Celeste had chicken Then we went to her house. Her house is quite big or rather spacious. Most of the stuff were built in.I think her house revolve around the theme nature. I feel very comfortable and cosy in her house. :DD Then we watched shopaholic. I really love the beginning where they showed many nice shoes Gosh i have a weakness for shoes. At first i was expecting it to be like the storybook but it turned out very different. It is like the combination or rather over lapping of the first 2 books. The clothes were amazing. I really loved her wardrobe ARGH i want!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

tears

2010-09-02T18:00:00.003+08:00

Crying has never been an indicator that you are weak. Since birth, it has always been a sign that you are alive.

Thank you xinxin for being there for me. i really appreciate your hugs and comforting words.

Thank you celeste and kellie for the letters it really cheered me up.

Today sucks but i am glad to know that there are friends who cared about me.

Thank you very much i will work harder and be stronger.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

mugging session with jingwen

2010-09-01T20:00:00.001+08:00

I had a mugging session with jingwen (: We met at the airport. LOL i was earlier than her so i wanted to walk to the T3 Macs first. Well, as usual i was lost and can't find it so i ended up waiting stupidly waiting for her at the MRT station after walking about strangely for like more than 15 minutes LOLS. Okay the session was quite productive i guess. I kind of completed Cold War, Organic Chem, and some other chem topics. jingwen was doing chemical bondings and its super chim. 'A' levels stuff ): She also told me some stuff about VJC which are quite unbelievable and scary. I think i will die if i go there ~~not that i can anyway~~. Anyway she inspired me to exercise so maybe i will go jogging tomorrow (:

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

“if it’s meant to be, It will be”

Teachers day and 6.3 outing

2010-08-31T20:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

So today is a day to thank the teachers for helping us. It is a great day for me cos no lesson and i get to meet with my primary school friends :DD i totally missed them. At first it was a little awkward but very soon we just crapped, laughed together. Teehee we talked about senseless stuff and laughed non stop until 6 plus hahaha. At first i was super lazy and didn't want to go but i totally didn't regret going!

6.3 '06 <3 I can't wait for next thursday where we will meet again to study!!! Love you guys :DD

Me: My moto is to not care about others just do what u want most.
Swee Yee: yea be a self centered happy person than become a generous and sad person

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

mugging session

2010-08-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

YAY completed my cold war notes with sweeyee. basically i talk and she type and refine hehs. We went to parkway library. Well its in the library so people who know me especially En and Xin will expect something. haha well, i kind of borrow 4 books ._. hehs. I have already finished one and is halfway through a second one. I borrow 3 Rachel Gibson books cos En made me hooked onto her. Her book are nice, i like the plot, the romance and the characters. I am beginning to think even that exotic part of the book is nice. guess i am sick. HEH she really write super detailed and it got quite ... at time. BUT i still like her style of writing :DD okay i shall sleep early and wake up at 3 again.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Romance stories <3

history test

2010-08-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

I didn't really do much today, kind of relax except i went to my old stuff and pack all my stuff. But I am going to mug history with sweeyee tomorrow. I am kind of worried for the upcoming history test cos although i may seem to know the facts and information about Cold War, i am afraid that i did not use the correct point. I shall make my notes tomorrow and think of some questions and try to write out points i will use. History, my only hope.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

no cca

2010-08-27T21:30:00.004+08:00

I managed to wake up at 3 am today then start work at 3.15 am. I completed my history notes on End of communism. At first i was quite confident about the Socratic seminar but during the thing i dunno why but suddenly i have mind block and my ideas doesn't really link with the words i say DD: I really hope i did quite okay like what celeste, xinxin and jiahui said D: *really praying hard*

&&
Played basketball during PE and after school. Had photo taking with guides. Went swimming with my mum. Talked about senior high CCA with cherisse, sweeyee and yiting. Considering netball and VG.

I shall wake up early to go to the gym with my mum :D

okay that's all. Swimming makes me tired.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Our届ALLFOURONE<3

fighting!

2010-08-26T19:50:00.001+08:00

Maths test was okay i hope. i just wish i have more time to do it. It would be nice if i get the bring the paper home to do as homework 'cos its kind of fun only 1 word problem but it work 9 marks DD: Then bio practical was quite okay except i stupidly read 1cm as 100mm. I only realised it at the last second and had to change practically half of the paper.

During BP,

Teacher: We will have a BP test now.

Class: HUH DD:

(15 mins later)

Teacher: okay i have already given you guys extra time now stop writing.

Class: WHAT!!!

Teacher: Okay now exchange paper with you partner.

Class: CHEY!!!

Its super stupid we were give time at the beginning of the lesson to study Phonetics. Then cos i thought is was a test so i went to study then in the end its just an exercise.

Then after BP everyone went back to class. But most people hanged around. Everyone was like watching 'show' the guys all ganged up against SIM. It was super funny at first but late it became damn scary.

I feel super relax after maths test. Celeste went to my house and we just talked and studied a little history. Then when we was about to go home we went up to the penthouse. OMG THE VIEW IS SUPER FANTASTIC!!! En and I decide that someday we shall earn enough money to buy a penthouse to live together.

Okay i shall read my history textbook to study for the Socratic seminar. Kind of looking forward to it actually. Oh BTW did i say that my brother cut it hair until army style yesterday? HAHAHAHA. Shall post his photo someday.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

Short

2010-08-25T17:17:00.001+08:00

Disclaimer: This will be a very short post.

Chem practical

Minus side: i will score badly

Plus side: It has very small weightage.

Maths test:

Minus side: i haven't finish memorising the formulas.

Plus side: i still got one day

I can do it :DD

Reminder to self: don't give up.

MATHS TIME!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

lost wallet and handphone and met V after talking abt her

2010-08-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

I almost lost my wallet and phone today. THANK YOU YICHEN!!! omg!!! Here how it happened. Hope you can catch this.

I took out my wallet and phone to call Ming Wei for lunch
Ming Wei was already in the canteen.
I was too lazy to go down to find her.
I went over to Celeste seat to talk to her.
We realised how small the world is and started talking excitedly about XXX.
I left my wallet at her table.
I spotted Cherisse and Swee Yee.
Celeste and I went to the door to tell them our findings.
Celeste left.
Swee Yee and Cherisse went outside and talk about stuffs.
Swee Yee left.
Cherisse and I spotted Ming Wei.
Went to 4J to talk and wait for Malay to start.
2.25. Ming Wei and I left for Malay.

I only realised that i lost my wallet and phone when i was about to walk home. BEST RIGHT? Then i started to recall where i left them. It was so stupid i had to call Celeste to get Yi Chen's number and use crystal's ~~spoiled~~ phone to call Yi Chen. And guess what is the best part?

Yi Chen was sitting like 2-3 tables in front of me =.= LOL well he was back facing me so you can't really blame me. Yeah i know i am blur and retarded.

I was super happy to get back my wallet and phone or i guess i will get killed by my dad. ):

Oh and when I went home and was like playing with my itouch and i heard someone calling my name. You will never believe that the person is actually XXX. i was like OMG OMG OMG!!!

Why is Singapore so small? Is this a good thing or a bad thing? Hmm i wonder. Okay mugging time.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

studying

2010-08-23T18:23:00.012+08:00

I wish there will be no exams or anything then life will be so great. All i need to do i enjoy myself. Perhaps then, i will love studying and will study without feeling the agony or pain. Yes i have heard of the quote, "The happiest people in life don’t have it all. They just make the best " but its really difficult to make it happen. Although challenges may be fun sometimes but still if it is thrown to you every other time, ITS NOT. People aways say you reap what you sow but i am beginning to doubt this. Perhaps its because i don't like this. LAZY is what i am sometimes i really wish i can just 守株待兔 and 不劳而获.

Well i am just dreaming about living in a hypothetical world so please do ignore me. HAHA Okay i got tons of homework to complete so bye.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

quiet me

2010-08-22T11:56:00.001+08:00

Seriously, why do people expect me to smile and laugh all the time and talk non-stop?

There are times when i feel like just staring into spaces.
Can't I?

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

CAMELIA

2010-08-21T11:10:00.001+08:00

I never realised how much i missed my senior until she talked to me last night. i was very surprised. She was still the same as friendly as ever. She never change from the first time i met her. She is always smiling, encouraging me and helping me.

I still remember:

i was walking into the guides booth during CCA exhibition and she excitedly came forward and greet me enthusiastically tell me about guiding. I also remember how she always make an effort to remember people's name.
During the first jihe, she remember my name even though we only met once during CCA exhibition. This made me very touched.
On my first thinking day celebration in the Singapore Indoor Stadium, while other seniors were sitting together singing guides songs together, she chose to sit next to use and teach us the songs. I really enjoyed that year's thinking day and also learnt many songs because of her or else i guess i will just be like attending a concert listening to other people sing.

While talking about what is happening in our lives, she asked about what i want to do next. As i told her my choice, she didn't try to make me change my mind although i think other people would as it is kind of unusual. Instead she encouraged me and asked me to try new things. The conversation ended as she told me to feel free to talk to her about anything like uni matter. After last night i also missed her encouragements, help and SMILE. LOVE HER!!!

THANK YOU CAMELIA!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

step up 3 :DD

2010-08-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

I hope i do well for the Biology test. I think it is okay except i didn't finished the paper so minus like 2-4 marks. Whatever. i should forget the past and focus on the future. MATHS TEST. I shall be a hard core mugger and spam maths integration questions.

Today after school, sweeyee went to my house and we kind of did the application of integration assignment together. Okay we managed to finish after many careless mistake ~~mostly by sweeyee~~ and senseless arguments. HAHA. I enjoyed myself teehee. Then i went to marina bay to have dinner, watch fireworks and STEP UP 3!!! I didn't watch in 3D cos there the cinema don't have 3D one DD: But i totally enjoyed the whole movie. THE DANCE STEPS ARE DAMN FREAKING COOL!!! and i think Alyson Stoner looks totally like Mary-Kate when she dressed up like her in the Halloween. LOL.

GO WATCH!!!

Okay i better sleep now before my mum scold me :x

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

deep down

2010-08-18T23:26:00.047+08:00

Sometimes, when i say ‘im okay’,

i want someone to look me in the eyes,

hug me tight and say i know you’re not.

Simplicity seduces me. Really.I love walks on the beach. I love sitting on the swing for hours. I love talking on the phone. I love watching the raindrops fall from the sky. I love sitting in silence next to someone I am close with. I love bus rides. I love baking. I love secretly writing in my diary. I love to think about people secretly when I am alone in my room. I love wandering around libraries staring at different books. I love sitting in one corner to imagine things. I love reading storybooks all alone. I love pasting my own plaster on my cuts. I love cutting out pretty images from magazines. i love staring at interesting objects. I love the thrills of jaywalking. I love doing random dance steps on the streets.I love the simple pleasures in life that I don't get to do so often anymore.

Dawn's blog

AGREE!!! Nowadays because of all the homework, test, preparing for EOY, i have lesser and lesser time to do other stuff other than mug, Which sucks. I really miss all the time i do other stuff when i no need to study. Watching TV, playing computer, eating, shopping, hanging out with friends, reading storybook, magazines... sigh tmr bio test i better go study now. Many people say very difficult sia, i die le. SIGH

*praying hard*

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

zy

2010-08-18T17:02:00.006+08:00

STOP TAKING MY THINGS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!!!

DAMMIT!

FYI, when is say no, i mean it.

Sometimes its really irritating when someone take your stuff even after you said no.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

totally pissed @#r$^

2010-08-17T18:17:00.007+08:00

Congratulate me man! i officially failed my maths pop quiz by stupidly forgetting to add the constant for every integration. YAY to me and to think i spend the whole recess memorising the formulas, differentiation, integration etc. STUPID ME!!! !$^@%@^&* I AM OFFICIALLY PISSED. GRRR!!! MATHS I AM WARNING YOU, I WILL OWN YOU. I WILL MUG YOU LIKE MAD AFTER MY BIO TEST!!! ARGHH.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

BP game

2010-08-16T16:53:00.039+08:00

had BP at the last period. I thought i will be boring but it turned out quite fun haha!!! LOL We had to play this board game like snake and ladder except in even box there will be a phonetics which we were supposed to pronounce it. It is played in pairs. Well i didn't really get the phonetics thingy so we just rolled the dice and move on haha.

*i rolled 6,' move back 3 space'*
Me: okaayy...
* i rolled 3, 'move back 3 space'*
Me: WTH AGAIN? I DON'T WANT TO PLAY LE
*I cheated by rolling the dice although it is not my turn i got 11.*
*xinxin got 'go back to start'*
Me: HAHAHHAHA
*I rolled and got 11*
Me: YAY I GOT 22
Xin Xin: I DON'T CARE YOU GO BACK TO 11
*Then after playing for a while we got go back to start again*
Me: WTH!!! Let move to sit on the floor maybe got better luck.
*Then we played until left like 5 boxes or something*
*xinxin got go back to the start*
Xin Xin: WL
Me: YAY I AM GOING TO WIN
Xin Xin: I DON'T WANT TO PLAY LE. YOU WIN.
*Then i rolled and got go back to start*
Me: WTH!!! its a stupid game!!!
Xin Xin: HAHAHHA TOO BAD!!!~~(see? xinxin so mean to me one)~~
Me: WHATEVER let's play again i sure win one.
*then we played left about 5 boxes again then xinxin rolled go back to start*
Xin Xin: STUPID SIA!!!
Me: HAHAH I AM GOING TO WIN
Xin Xin: NO YOU ARE GOING BACK TO START AGAIN!!!
Me: NO I WILL ROLL A 6!!! WATCH ME!!!
*then i shouted SIX super loudly and threw it damn high and i rolled 6 and i won.*
Me: YAY!!!
Xin Xin: *stunned*
Me: HAHAHAH I TOLD YOU I WILL WIN

This convo is mostly in CAPS cos we were like shouting haha then the sore loser went to blog on her blog.

Eileen sucks TTM HAHAHAH^^
EILEEN THE LOSER LOSER LOSER WINNER!

SORE LOSER

haha okay i had enough fun le better start work now!!!

**Found it on tumblr :DD its matches my blogskin haha anyway i am falling in love with tumblr, all those beautiful pictures. LOL if you are free ~~but i doubt so~~ can visit my tumblr.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

maths and bio

2010-08-15T11:32:00.001+08:00

okay i spend yesterday completing my maths assignment which i can also tell myself i am revising partial fractions, integration and also a little differentiation for the upcoming math quiz to comfort myself although i still haven't really memorise some of the formulas which means i have to spend sometime this week again on maths. Today i must really study bio cos i never touch it yesterday. Sigh i hope i will be able to focus and i hope it is not too late. okay i better start now. Mugging later with dawn. i have been quite awhile since i last met her outside school. School holiday? anyway bye.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

2010-08-14T10:40:00.000+08:00

I finished GLEE!!!

Its sooo nice i want to watch season 2. YIREN GO DOWNLOAD!!! HAHA. well, i know i better be off studying considering that EOY is just 47 days away. WTH. Exams really kill the life of students. Actually being a student already mean that you have no life. So whatever. Okay i shall not waste this weekend. I must really study and pass the next bio test (which is in 5 days time) with flying colours or i would be so DEAD sigh i really don't want to fail it AGAIN. i completed my heredity notes i shall go do my human reproduction notes then start memorizing them. Wish me luck!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

friday

2010-08-13T18:33:00.003+08:00

I really need to speed up when doing chinese test sian always no time to write one last line. Sigh. Anyway, i played basketball for PE. super long didn't play le shooting all off ~~not that it was very accurate in the first place haha~~ after EOY i want to go practice, shall go find my neighbours teehee. Then after school had Bio remedial which went super fast and i don't think i got all. I must go study myself. Before next week's remedial, i better go study the topic Mdm Loh revising before hand. Then maths remedial was boring. I think next time i revise myself at home provided i have the confidence to stay focus haha.

okay i shall go ikea now teehee.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

i hate it

2010-08-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

Darn! Why should i do it?

oh yeah i forgot its for my own good.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

great day

2010-08-11T18:02:00.001+08:00

Chemistry test was easy as usual but i just hope i will not make careless mistakes as usual. i really hope i can score well. Today i also had Malay oral and well i think it was quite okay, cos even with my limited vocabulary for Malay, i still manage to understand what the examiner ask and i manage to answer. And also despite my usual poor and lousy reading, i manage to read the passage quite fluently. So yay to me.

Okay so malay oral ended but there is more to come. Like an upcoming maths pop quiz, bio test and lots of overdue chinese homework. Geez. But overall, today was great, its a good start to mark the end of the long holiday. So hopefully the lucky streak will continue. SO HOMEWORK TIME NOW!!!

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

upcoming

2010-08-10T19:43:00.002+08:00

Am i ready for tomorrow?

Chemistry test!

Malay oral 'O' Levels!

I guess I have wasted this long weekend.

CRAP!!!

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

HAPPY

2010-08-07T23:26:00.002+08:00

I am really happy today(: My room is very complete now. The mattress arrived and sweeyee is staying over on Monday :DD Now all i left is packing (: HAHAHA i just when shopping the whole day.

I bought(actually my mum and dad bought for me haha):

Lamp - for my room
Mirror - i need one for my wardrobe
Hangers - to hang all my clothes
Mattress
A UK flag bag - To match one of my shoe. HAHA no lah cos its super cool, its shiny and can kind of change colour.
Swimming costume-because my swimming pool is tempting me.

I better study tomorrow. CHEMISTRY HERE I COME!

PS: XINXIN CALL ME SOON!!! please agree to mug tomorrow!!! haha.

okay i am off to pack my room although it is very late now cos i am in the mood. Teehee.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

Remember me?

2010-08-06T13:51:00.004+08:00

Today marks the start of the long holiday. I went to school today for ~~slacking~~ national day celebration. The celebration was basically make up for listening to song. It was quite dumb as we keep hearing the same songs over and over again. Home, reach out of the skies,Singapore town those common songs lah. I am okay with the songs just that, WHY THEY MUST KEEP REPEATING? But i enjoyed the dance from D-movement it super coordinated that's why it is very nice. Anyway, yesterday I completed 3/5 of my things to do. Not that bad considering that the bio report take a long time.

Things to complete:

Malay Oral
REVISE FOR CHEMISTRY TEST !!!
Revise Trigo 3
剪报
每日一句

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

PS: I am getting hooked onto Tumblr photos. They are so nice(: i decide to add one pic per blog post. teehee see how long i can last.

BUSY

2010-08-05T19:31:00.001+08:00

Things to complete

Physics Practical
剪报
Bio report research
Revise Trigo 3
Ventures 集合 reflection

okay so i shall complete these by tonight. Actually by 9pm cos i want to watch TV haha. I shall not add on to my list although there are more. I know if i add more and more into the list, i will end up not doing anything so yeah. I guess thats all for tonight folks.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

STRESS

2010-08-04T22:14:00.001+08:00

GOD! what wrong with me nowadays? My life sucks. Homework, Malay oral 'O' levels, tests, test results, EOYs. Nothing is going well. I am getting more and more stressed up. And the best part? with so many things on, i just can't seem to motivate myself. All i do is read read read. I better ban myself from the library and start studying. Maybe i should have a to do list then list them all out and cancel them one by one. I am sure i will feel good after that. Okay planning is important, i better start asap. Wish me luck people.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

New House

2010-08-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

I kind of did nothing during the weekends although i planned to complete 1 jianbao and portfolio's reflections and perhaps maths revision. Instead i went out to find stuff for my new house so yea. Anyway today i shifted into my new house and there are pros and cons. Well i shall name the top 3. i got this inspiration from "The Little Lady Agency" book teehee. Okay so here it is.

Pros

It is 5 stops away from my school which is super near now i only need around 10 minutes to reach home. YAY to me.
I love my new room and i no longer need to share the room with my brother and it got a queen size bed inside ~~although i have not bought the mattress~~
My new study table is huge and nice(:

Cons

The whole study room is like made of glass so i cannot afford to mess the room, which means i must pack after i finish studying and my parents will kill me if it look messy. Knowing me i believe i will get scolded many times.
i must unpack all my stuff. I haven't finish unpacking all my clothes still got more than 1 big suitcase and my wardrobe is like 1/4 full and i run out of hanger! BEST! i still got all my books and if you come to my house before you will know how many books i have. Gosh this new house is so deprived of storage place.
The sofa haven't arrived so i will be sitting on the floor to watch TV programmes. ~~Not that i watch it often, most of my free time is spent on computers.~~

Yea guess that's about it. LOL i better either start unpacking or start doing my homework. LOL.

itsmeEILEEN

yes, i am still me

FISHING TRIP AND PHYSICS LESSON

2010-07-24T23:06:00.007+08:00

Guess what! i helped my brother put contacts lense today(: hehe.Not a bad experience(: Well then i went to NTU for the fishing lesson. Well i just realised today that NTU was super huge cos i got lost there=.=. Swee Yee's dad went round and round until finally we reached the location.

Guess what i did while waiting?

Hint 1: Wang and jiamin is there.

Hint 2: There is a camera.

CAM WHORE

HAHA am sure you guys know the answer before that. Then after throwing my face many times over by wearing the same shirt and also being with mich, yiting, wang, yiting and sweeyee, ~~okay i admit contributing sometimes,~~ we went to some ~~weird smelling~~ meeting room. We learnt about fishing ~~and it is boring.~~ It was only until when we were giving fishing line and hooks to try to tie then it became more interesting. Well we had to tie the hook to the line but most of use don't have nibble fingers so it took some time. Wang was epic. haha she cannot tie den go tell the trainer she only year 1. Then after the trainer teach her many time, which she still don't get it, the trainer had to resort to like speaking to a 3 year old child. It was super funny. But luckily she got it in the end. CONGRATS! haha.Then soon we went to some quite huge lake in NTU to fish. The rods were all ready all we need to do was put the bait and then cast it. HAHA the casting was fun but the waiting for the fish part was killing me. Fishing requires patience and patience is one thing i don't have. And luck or can be called “鱼缘”is also needed. Well after spending alot of time by the lake, I CAUGHT NOTHING!!! LOL.sweeyee caught a turtle and almost caught a small fish. wang almost caught a fish. Jiamin caught a leave. yichen caught 2 twigs and a fish. Shulin caught a twig. and Bryan caught 2 fish. Oh he was the first person to catch the fish. Well, i guess he got a lot of 鱼缘 ~~but a bit lack of 人缘.~~ haha fishes love him... LOL. anyway then we left early and the rest of the guides went Bugis.

I went to Kallang Macs to meet xinxin ~~but in the end she left early and ps me.~~ Qiu Rui, En, Sim and lester was oso there. When i was there, lester was teaching physics and xinxin and sim were like asking some dumb, complicated physics question which i don't think the test will come out. Right? *gasps hopefully* The scene then was quite cute and funny. It was after Celeste and qiu rui left then many funny things happen.

The Best Joke

Me: Eh is your brother eyes small?

Lester: No lah i see his brother photo on Facebook before.

*long pause and after changing topic*

Sim: Actually my eyes is big. *very serious*

*long pause then everyone burst out laughing*

Sim: Laugh lorh, its the fact. last time my eyes very big de then i keep crying then my eyes become smaller.

Haha damn joke cos when i was young, i also kept crying then in the end my eyes like become bigger. LOLS. Anyway i asked my mum then she say crying won't make your eyes smaller. Well i was curious so i did some research haha.

christnp: It can make your eyes looks smaller due to temporary swelling of the tissues around the eye, but it does not permanently change the size of your eyes.
Megan W: Nope. Eyes actually never grow or shrink. The size of eyes you are born with will be the size of eyes you will die with. (This is why babies eyes seem so big!)
Jxdy11: It doesn't really make your eyes smaller. What it does is make your eyelids swell, which makes it seem like your eyes are smaller. After a few hours tops, it should return to normal. To be technical, the reason why it swells is partly from us rubbing our eyes/wiping away tears. The other reason is that our nervous system is reacting to our strong emotions and seeing it as a sign of stress. During stress, the sympathetic part of the autonomic nervous system mounts a "fight or flight" response, which is supposed to protect us from danger. This causes flushing in our face, more tear secretion, dilated pupils, and more blood flow to the periphery of our body, contributing to the swollen eyelids.

The net

Teehee i was curious. and bored yea. Anyway i had a long stupid and senseless msn convo with Sim in the evening which i won (:. Then it later evolved to a facebook mass attack with more people evolved which i got quite lost. HAHA i was super high this evening. I kept laughing. Oh then i heard some weird man singing loudly near my house. Super disgusting it sounded super horrible. GOSH. Oh BTW i am loving GLEE. I finished 2 episodes(: haha. The songs are great. Okay i shall continue watching Glee now.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

第四十一届德明女童军团正式解散

2010-07-19T18:50:00.010+08:00

第四十一届德明女童军团正式解散

Last friday was my last jihe. Time flies. It seem yesterday that i was attending the Girl Guides orientation and Camelia was showing me around the campsite. It was so cool. When i was put in her patrol, SHE REMEMBERED MY NAME :DD Now writing about guides, many memories came flooding my mind and i dunno where to start. Never mind i shall try to arrange my thoughts and put the in order. Before the first jihe, we were gathered in a lecture theather and they talked about guides. Then we were put into patrols and i thought that i was in P7 OREO. LOL. i found it very wierd. Very soon was the first jihe which was a fun OJ. From that OJ, i really bonded with P7 oriole. I still remember iimelda introducing herself as the seh iimelda. HEHE. It was really a fun jihe and i made many friends. Very soon, i grew out of my comfort zone as the juniors come in. I remembered being very amazed by joylynn's knots and so is iimelda. But joylynn was super quite den iimelda made me talk to her. LOL i remember talking crap to her as i really didn't know what to say. i think i just kept repeating, you must talk more. LOL it was a super lame talk. Then soon, after iimelda's batch left, the leadership roles came in. During patrol passing down, sweeyee and i were like praying not to get the messager role. LOL then when she was the messager, we kept nudging each other and almost burst our laughing. Then during ATC, i got to know more about wenxin. I remembered being quite disappointed with my patrol mates as i didn't really know them. But it all turned out fine. i had alot of fun with wenxin, making the banner and flag. OMG i am so proud of our art piece. P5 phantom(: LOL then there is song leader which i made even more closer friends. We crap together, did stupid actions together. kookaburra is the best hehs. Then very soon it was COJ. I remembered having long telephones calls with qingang, then asking my mum to ignore calls from bryan. LOL 奶妈 FTW. Very soon was the long dreaded PLTC. Long prep hours but it was fun bonding with the patrol. PLTC was tough but with friends, it was bearable. P2 Ninja. Then i became part of the leadership batch. Planning the ATC, looking after the logistics. I wasn't as fun as being in the camp but it was a good experience. i also participated in the Camp Challenge, YOG and many other activities. Being in guides really exposed me to many thing and they are all precious memories, But the greatest take away is the friends i make. I love you guys. I will really miss crapping with you guys, cheering, pia-ing, there is just too many stuff we do together. Although there are tough times in guides, but i will never reget regret joining guides. I love guides.

一日童军，一世童军！！！

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

So passing down was yesterday. Im officially out of guides now. Yesterday was the full stop for 4 years worth of guiding memories for this year. No more guides, no more skipping lunch on fridays, no more crazy chionging on fridays before jihe, no more staying back after jihe to clear up, no more PTs, no more jihes, no more guides.

You miss being alerted during jihes by your seniors, you miss pumping together, cheering together during PTs, sweating like mad when running, you miss changing together in the toilet during mass change, you miss cursing and swearing together, you miss hanging around after jihes, you miss tying gadgets, you miss the sense of accomplishment you actually get when you finish tying a gadget/structure, you miss pia-ing with your patrol, you miss your seniors being there leading you. You miss everything. I admit, the trainee times were the best times i ever had in guides.

In guides (UG), we have a common language that other people dont understand. Baoshu, baoshi, knock it down, alert, jiazhua, duishou and everything. People find us weird and crazy like why we love our cca so much. People normally don't understand what we do during guides. They don't know how much we went through, what we do during activities, the bond with have, the terms we use (HAHAHA) :)

Xin Tian's blog

After 4 years in guides, and suddenly it just had to come to an end, obviously we'd feel something right. all the pain, blood, saliva, sweat, tears, staying up late, fabric paint stains, smses, mass msn convos that we shared. for some of us, we our shared secrets and problems to one another. for some of us, we shared the same tent. for some of us, we shared the same patrol flag.

Cherisse's blog

shuhui's father's death

2010-07-13T19:51:00.001+08:00

Treasure you love ones...

Yesterday i learned that my junior's father has passed away. Its very sad and it made me think a lot.

To her:

Stay strong. Keep smiling. Everything may not be the same to you anymore but P7 Oriole will still be behind you always. Keep smiling and we will get through this together. I know this will be a difficult time for you but keep this in your heart. We will always be there for you. Any of us. ALL OF US. You can do it. We love you.

我相信事情的转变是上天故意安排的。可能上天要教她怎么坚强一点，珍惜每一天。但我还不能接受上天这样的安排，这太残忍了！我知道我说起来好像是事情发生在我的身上，但其实我无法想象如果事情真的发生在我的身上我会怎么度过。我会不会怨天尤人，还是我辉映着投票过去。不管怎么样，从现在开始，我一定要珍惜我身边的每一个人，我不可以等到他们离开了我，我才来后悔。

Today sweeyee asked me to go to my junior's father wake tomorrow but i just can't bring myself to agree. So far i only been to 2 wakes. The first one is my God grandfather. I was very afraid to look into the coffin. But as i have to keep walking around the coffin, praying, i forced myself to look inside. Perhaps its my curiosity in any case, i look inside. He looked like he is just sleeping. I almost teared even through i wasn't close to him in fact, i only met in less than 5 times. I realised how fragile life is. The second time happen to a close friend of mine. Her dad passed away. My mum brought me there and i chatted with my friend. She didn't talk about her dad so neither did i. We just had normal conversation. There wasn't many people around, it was quiet. When my classmates arrived, it became livelier but i still can feel the solemness. The grief can be felt. I payed my respects but i didn't look into the coffin. Those happened when i was in primary school. I didn't think much about it. But now, hearing about death make me think a lot. I was really afraid going to funerals. Perhaps i didn't like the grief there or perhaps i was afraid that one day, the person lying in the coffin will be one i am very closed with. I know this will happen but i just didn't want to face it. The closest time when i was forced to think about it was the time when my grandfather had a major stroke. Looking at him lying on the bed in the hospital, looking weak, i was very shocked. He once strong man who fetched me from kindergarten everyday, send me for my enrichment classes every week, look after me when my parents are busy. Fortunately, he is now in Old folks home recovering well. I hope he will continue to live a long life. I hope people i know will live a long and happy life. And forgive me for not going to the wake. I am sorry...

Keep smiling.

Keep living.

i didn't realised i will write so long but death is a sensitive topic to talk about but after writing all of these, my heart felt unnaturally peaceful.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

World Cup 2010

2010-07-12T18:41:00.001+08:00

World Cup 2010

Holland VS Spain

Octopus VS Parrot

Paul VS Mani

And the winner?

SPAIN!!!

Yay!!! Haha cos i support Spain (: So the world cup 2010, the once in 4 years event has ended this morning ~~which Singapore isn't inside, so much for the GOAL 2010~~. I didn't watch it but my mum did. LOL she say she can't sleep so she decided to watch world cup while the rest of my family sleeps. So the score 1:0 after extra time. Well before that my uncle was like saying this final will go into extra time cos apparently it took Paul a little while to think before settling on Spain. So when my mum told me the results i was like COOL! Paul was right and my uncle was right about the extra time part (: This year's world cup is great ~~through i didn't watch it and i don't regret~~ but it don't seem to have many goals but everyone still seem to enjoy it so i guess goals doesn't matter, skills are more important. Teehee.

Okay i got distracted for quite long le so i shall continue with my homework. bye.(:

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

lost wallet and RI Inter-school Philosophy Dialogue session

2010-07-10T23:14:00.003+08:00

I am officially broke thanks to the person who took my wallet ): I left my wallet in the toilet during recess yesterday when i was changing. When i returned like 15 to 20 minutes time it was gone ): i dislike the canteen toilet ttm. But actually the part of me and xinxin went around finding the wallet was quite fun. HAHAHA. We went told this school uncle about me losing the wallet in the toilet then he brought us around the school looking for the wallet, asking the cleaners. But i still didn't manage to find the wallet. Fortunately after school my wallet was found but the money is gone ): 30 plus bucks even my 1 dollar coin was taken away. But at least my Ez-link card still intact. 可以说是不幸中的大幸吧! I told my mum about my lost wallet then she BEST she say the person 没有眼光, my wallet quite expensive also dunno how to take. LOLS...

I went for the RI Inter-school Philosophy Dialogue session today. RI was super big then i kind of lost my way there... The field was huge(:

Our question was vaguely like this:

Maria and Johnny wanted a baby, but Maria's womb is too small so she can't be pregnant. Therefore, she asked Julie to "lend" her womb, which basically means to be a surrogate "mother". Then, Julie agreed because Maria saved her daughter's life before. After that, Maria found out from some Korean research that the fetus will bond with the surrogate mother while in her womb, and Maria didn't want that. So, she asked Julie to remove the fetus, as in she doesn't want it anymore, but Julie refused and showed a very strong emotional displeasure.

So our question was, who had the right to make the choice of whether aborting the baby or not?

Well, our conclusion was Maria had more rights than Julie in this case, talking about all the bonding and stuff but those were not Julie's to begin with anyway. And since it was just a contract and stuff. But now we realise that what we should do will not make everybody happy, but it is the best that we can do.

from xinxin's blog

Hehe i was lazy to type about all these. Anyway it was an eye-opener for me. it wasn't really what i had in mind. Well, the dialogue was basically pawned by the R family. I didn't really say any useful stuff but at least i manage to speak lah. Nevertheless, i kind of had fun.

After that, i went to Bishan library with xinxin, en and hoeshuen to do the LA creative product. We wasted quite alot of time at the super market wondering around, taking stuff, thinking what to buy but i shall treat it as part of discussion (:

We were walking down somewhere narrow then xinxin crashed into an auntie but she continued talking to me

XX: i suggest we ...

Auntie: I suggest you say excuse me next time instead of pushing your way through.

LOL epic. The auntie so smart.

Then after the project i stayed in the libray and mugged biology alone. i am proud to announce that i completed studying cell division and plants reproduction :D The next step is to do the questions which i shall do tomorrow.i love studying in the library alone. Its cooling and peaceful. I concentrate very well there. Maybe i should do that more often. hmm...

okay i guess that's all for today. I shall only update my blog if i feel like it. LOL no lah more of if there is something that happen in my life. But my life quite boring lah so don't expect much updates hehs.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

Updates

2010-07-05T12:56:00.001+08:00

Okay so school reopened and 1 week has passed. And i have a long weekend break thanks to Youth Day. Sigh i already miss school holiday especially after i had so much fun at the last week.

Things i did at the last week of holiday

movie trip with my mum and bro
outing with dawn
movie trip with celeste
class outing
patrol chalet with P7
eat sushi buffet with the jie

yea its quite eventful but i was too lazy to blog anything and i shall spend this long weekend lazing around. Bye.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

STRESS

2010-06-17T18:59:00.006+08:00

I hate reality especially this holiday. I wish i can just live in my dreams where

The holiday is not coming to an end
My homework is complete
My revision are all done

Sadly i can't.

Should i face reality and start listing what homework i left?

God this is so depressing. I don't even know where to start.

Maybe hypnotising will work ...

ilovehomeworkilovehomework

Forget it! Hopefully 船到桥头自然直. GAH!!!

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

fickle-minded

2010-06-15T17:05:00.006+08:00

The word fickle-minded shouts ME！

Scene 1

In the morning at home preparing to go out,

I wanted to use my jeans material blue sling bag so i tried to find it. While searching for it, i found out that i actually have a lot of bags. So i went,

"I shall not get any more bags"

5 seconds later,

"But i only have one small one and many others!

I know! I will get more small bags!"

Then i spent some time thinking about what type of pouches i want.

Scene 2

In Popular with xinxin,

We were talking about getting some friendship items to bring to school then we spotted a cute pencil case. So xinxin started,

"I know let's get it!"

"Huh... don't want leh"

"But its cute... "

"Okay."

"So the blue or the red?"

" Erm i think don't want lah."

1 second later when we are about to walk away,

"Okay blue! its cheap, matches my new bag and its our friendship pencil case which we will bring to school."

And i left Popular feeling happy and start thinking about what stuff to put inside.

See how fickle-minded i am and how i am so good at consoling myself?

Anyway after realising i have so many bags, i went on a 'soul searching' journey and i found out that i have many clothes, accessories, shoes, nail polish and blah blah blah, Anyway conclusion:

A girl can never have too many things

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

你有没有想过，也许你不在我的身边的时候，我会寂寞得去找别人。
你以为你很了解我吗？也许等哪一天你回头，我已经不在了。

纪存希《命中注定我爱你》

on hiatus? NOT

2010-06-14T21:01:00.013+08:00

I changed my blogskin and it looks wierd. Any suggestions?

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i give up trying to put twitter on my blog. Any help?
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Well,

I was bored so i stopped blogging.
I was bored so i changed my blogskin.
I didn't want to waste my efforts on the blogskin so i start blogging again.

How's that?

Things which happen between the last blog post and today

Glass art with mich, xintian and yiting
~~Slacking~~ CIP at old folks home
Girl Guides Taiwan ~~shopping spree~~ trip
Watched finished 原来是美男
~~Bitching~~ bike hike with sweeyee, yiting, mich, jiamin, wang, ckai, bryan, yichen,yuhao, jingpei
A day out with mum and bro
Mugging with Xin Xin

I guess thats it. Yes i know my holiday sucks. But it's not what i want ): Anyone want to hang out?

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

为什么？

2010-05-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

为什么人生会有这么多为什么呢？我的心里有很多问题，但是真得很难找到答案，这使我非常的纳闷，有没有人可以给我我要的答案呢？

为什么世界没有我要的那么美丽？

为什么生活没有我要的那么精彩？

为什么读书没有我要的那么容易？

为什么努力付出却没我要得回报？

为什么有些人我就是看他不顺眼？

为什么在这个世上一定要有背叛？

为什么要知足要是那么困难的事？

为什么上帝不可以给我我所要的？

★ EILEEN