Life is made up of decisions and sometimes these decisions are hard to make. i want to try to get the President Guide Award but this means that i need to forgo my Taiwan trip. If i did not get the award, i will totally regret no going to the Taiwan trip. On the other hand is i were to go to the Taiwan trip, i know that next time i will regret not trying. I know that for the betterment of my future and to beautify my portfolio, i need to try to get the President Guide Award but i know i will enjoy my trip to Taiwan why would i want to let myself lose out in all the fun?


Today is career day. I have always wanted to be an obstetrician. I had this dream since kindergarten But i realized now that with my grade, it is very difficult almost impossible as I need to get into the medicine faculty and they only accept 260 people. i really don't feel like considering other occupations but i guess i have no choice. Either i study really really hard or i try other jobs. i really hate it when my ability cannot support my interest. TWO YEARS IS ALL I HAVE LEFT!!! I realised that life is never a bed of roses. 


★ EILEEN

FREE! i feel very relieved after the Maths test. I think the test is okay considering that i can do all of it and i believe i can pass. Now i must complete 2 报章读后感. oh Bio concept map is due tomorrow. tomorrow is career day so NO SCHOOL!

★ EILEEN

ARGH i am very worried now. Homework in the holiday really sucks. History... LA... i should learn from En and take one step at a time but do i have the time? LA i left the solutions which is like the most important part of the whole essay =.= i decided to move on and do history essay. Chinese... GAH

Holiday had begun and i think this is the busiest holiday i have ever had.

Sunday-Thursday: Penang
Friday: Health check-up

Then i only have 2 days to complete

1. LA research essay on LDC and YOG
2. History essay
3. 报章读后感
4. Logarithm Test revision
5. Chinese project on Food
6. Chemistry e-poster
7. Physics project
8. Biology concept map 
9. CME postcard
10. and lots of worksheet 

Today is a stupid day as i only went to school for 2 hours. Maybe i should rejoice as there is a half day holiday BUT since the principal is so happy with the results why can't they just give us the full day holiday? 2 hours is like longer than my travelling time to and fro school and home. So much for making us ambassadors and going around broadcasting our school wonderful results. i rather stay at home and SLEEP! IF they give us more time to sleep then all of us would not look so tired during lessons and will be able to pay attention. In the one week of holiday we are given so MUCH homework the least they could do is just give us that whole day and allow us to catch up with some sleep and do our homework. Sigh why don't they think about all of this. STRESS!!!

I had a very hyper day today. I guess because i am already in holiday mood lols. Actually come to think of it today quite boring except i keep laughing then i seems very interesting. First was Maths then i kept joking and laughing. Then was physics which i spend talking to celeste. Then recess in the canteen with xinxin. I realised that i very long didnt go to the canteen le keep going to the library and spend a lot of money and eat a lot of junk food. Then biology. During La had a spring comprehension test. Oh we did the class action plan today and i think it is super crap. Comeon lah we won't carry out those measure de lah. LOL and the day finally ended. Okay i shall do my work soon. I totally wasted yesterday slacking so must really chiong today.

Things to do today:

1. Malay Workbook
2. 150 成语
3. Biology Abstract

Today have activity in school. We played captain's ball with P5 who has all the tall people -.- then floor ball then played soccer which was rough and i have a cut on my leg ): Someone kicked my leg den... Last was netball. i was tired after that. Had chicken rice for lunch. I realised i miss chicken rice which is supposedly DHS guides favourite food haha. In the afternoon was the long awaited dragon boating course. I enjoyed the water fight but i don't like when the instructors also joined in and made me wet. Then got one his splash the water super hard and cause one side of my contacts to drop ): Luckily i still got the other side orelse sure blind one. i am very tired now i don't feel like doing anything sia. Oops i think i am already in holiday mood.

★EILEEN

today i have physics test in the first period. i think the test is easier than expected. Hopefully i will score well ba. Then after physics is P.E. We run 2.4km/ LOL actually i was quite proud of myself. I actually wanted to cheat by running only 5 rounds but i manage to run 6 rounds without stopping. I don't know how because i didnt do much exercise BUT i feel that my stamina improved. Usually i run 2 to 3 rounds then i very tired le but today i ran 4 to 5 rounds then i  feel tired. I think i am quite satisfied with my timing arouind 14mins so i hope during NAPFA my 2.4 will be okay(: During recess xinxin, celeste and i went to the SPCA booth and took some cute leaflets. we purposly took the cat one for Lester. HAHA lol super funny. we suan-ed lester but he don't get it until we spell it out to him. Then history we went to the humanities room and i realised actually xinxin celeste and i are quite childish haha. CME was quite interesting cos i feel that the lesson is very short maybe it is because the teacher came late but i think the stories are very interesting. Then after CME i was preparing to go to patrol corner when IT IS CANCELLED hah no cca. But tomorrow got dragon boating lah. I believe it will be fun(: Sweeyee and i went to have lunch in Bugis. We ate at pepper lunch express in the bugis food court. No bad after i add cheese(: We went to Bugis street. Actually i wanted to get a new wallet and sweeyee wanted earrings. In the end i bought earrings with her. Although it is nice i kind of regret buying them. Nevermind its okay. Once ina while is okay(:

★EILEEN

Forgive and forget is something easier said than done. Sometimes after hating a person for something they have done and then soon you receive some help or kindness from them, you will feel terrible for hating them. But after you tried to forgive them, they will do something that makes you angry again and you would not want to forgive them and you will remember the hurt they had caused you in the past. As the cycles goes on, the hurt and hate gets deeper and until a point when you get tired and decides to ignore them for good. Is this a good thing? i dislike the feel of guilt but i dislike the feeling of anger which i am unable to release even more. Sometimes i tried to scream and tell the person how i feel but in the end i will chicken out. i do not understand why issit only to a certain person i feel that way. If it is others, i would have just screamed and give THE FACE but why issit when i face a certain few person i will control and endure. Issit because they play an important part in my life that i cannot offend them? Or issit i could not be bothered by them? Or i am too numb by their actions? I want to scream. I want to fight. I will to apologise. I want to ignore. But how?

Okay i know this is not a very nice blog post. i will post something better next time. This is just my reflection over something i hope i will get an answer soon.

★EILEEN