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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
shuhui's father's death Treasure you love ones... Yesterday i learned that my junior's father has passed away. Its very sad and it made me think a lot. To her: Stay strong. Keep smiling. Everything may not be the same to you anymore but P7 Oriole will still be behind you always. Keep smiling and we will get through this together. I know this will be a difficult time for you but keep this in your heart. We will always be there for you. Any of us. ALL OF US. You can do it. We love you.我相信事情的转变是上天故意安排的。可能上天要教她怎么坚强一点，珍惜每一天。但我还不能接受上天这样的安排，这太残忍了！我知道我说起来好像是事情发生在我的身上，但其实我无法想象如果事情真的发生在我的身上我会怎么度过。我会不会怨天尤人，还是我辉映着投票过去。不管怎么样，从现在开始，我一定要珍惜我身边的每一个人，我不可以等到他们离开了我，我才来后悔。 Today sweeyee asked me to go to my junior's father wake tomorrow but i just can't bring myself to agree. So far i only been to 2 wakes. The first one is my God grandfather. I was very afraid to look into the coffin. But as i have to keep walking around the coffin, praying, i forced myself to look inside. Perhaps its my curiosity in any case, i look inside. He looked like he is just sleeping. I almost teared even through i wasn't close to him in fact, i only met in less than 5 times. I realised how fragile life is. The second time happen to a close friend of mine. Her dad passed away. My mum brought me there and i chatted with my friend. She didn't talk about her dad so neither did i. We just had normal conversation. There wasn't many people around, it was quiet. When my classmates arrived, it became livelier but i still can feel the solemness. The grief can be felt. I payed my respects but i didn't look into the coffin. Those happened when i was in primary school. I didn't think much about it. But now, hearing about death make me think a lot. I was really afraid going to funerals. Perhaps i didn't like the grief there or perhaps i was afraid that one day, the person lying in the coffin will be one i am very closed with. I know this will happen but i just didn't want to face it. The closest time when i was forced to think about it was the time when my grandfather had a major stroke. Looking at him lying on the bed in the hospital, looking weak, i was very shocked. He once strong man who fetched me from kindergarten everyday, send me for my enrichment classes every week, look after me when my parents are busy. Fortunately, he is now in Old folks home recovering well. I hope he will continue to live a long life. I hope people i know will live a long and happy life. And forgive me for not going to the wake. I am sorry... Keep smiling. Keep living. i didn't realised i will write so long but death is a sensitive topic to talk about but after writing all of these, my heart felt unnaturally peaceful. itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me
7:51 PM
❤ the angel's devil |
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