you eat, you’re fat. you don’t eat, you’re a freak. you drink, you’re an alcoholic. you don’t drink, you’re a pussy. you read, you’re a nerd. you don’t read, you’re stupid. you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. you let someone in, you’re easy. you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. you smoke, you think you’re cool. you don’t smoke, you’re a loser. you’ve had sex, you’re a slut. you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you’re a slag. you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. you can’t please anyone. ever.

I'm learning to be thankful, and I'm learning to take one step at a time.

I'm trying to convince myself that things are not so bad, and I can get through all these and emerge as a stronger person.

It isn't easy to be strong.

Isn't easy to pretend it doesn't matter, when it really does.

Isn't easy to hold back tears when you know they're coming.

Isn't easy, but we just gotta learn.

I've got to learn to be strong.

I've got to learn to depend on myself, because when the world collapses there's only me and myself to rely on.

I've got to learn to face trouble thrown at me at the speed of light, because if not, I won't survive.

I've got to laugh and shrug it off, because laughing is better than crying, right?

Right.

There's so much more to learn, so long a road ahead.

Can't afford a break, because then the world's gonna pass you by.

That's how this world functions.

itsmeEILEEN
yes, i am still me

I went shopping today. I got my mini shopaholic book. It is super expensive like 32 bucks plus after 10% discount. Yeah I got the big version cos that is the first version and I have no patience to wait for the cheaper version to come out. But hey I have been waiting for this book for ages. My dad bought for me cos I seldom buy books nowadays. BTW i am so getting some  Rachel Gibson books hehs. I love mini shopaholic it is super funny and I believe that there will be another book coming out and I guess it will be Shopaholic in Hollywood :DD MINNIE IS SO CUTE!!! Oh I also bought a new ear piece cos my old one spoilt. Then I went for a buffet dinner. The food was great but not very fantastic and it cost 40 plus bucks but for every 2 adult dinning, 1 adult dines for free. I don't this it is worth it. But well my family do not need to pay cos I went with my old neighbours and this is kind of a farewell party for us so yay. Anyway it is late now but I don't feel like sleeping cos I am super full. Blame the desserts. They are all so delicious. Gosh I am putting on a lot of weight. MUST VISIT THE GYM TOMORROW!!!

itsmeEILEEN

This is a little story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.

Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.

Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody’s job.

Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn’t do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

I had a mugging session with jingwen (: We met at the airport. LOL i was earlier than her so i wanted to walk to the T3 Macs first. Well, as usual i was lost and can't find it so i ended up waiting stupidly waiting for her at the MRT station after walking about strangely for like more than 15 minutes LOLS. Okay the session was quite productive i guess. I kind of completed Cold War, Organic Chem, and some other chem topics. jingwen was doing chemical bondings and its super chim. 'A' levels stuff ): She also told me some stuff about VJC which are quite unbelievable and scary. I think i will die if i go there not that i can anyway. Anyway she inspired me to exercise so maybe i will go jogging tomorrow (: