Well i wasted the whole of today. Actually not really wasted just that i never do homework and stuff. Well mostly because after doing for scouts(or guides) stuff i usually don't really have the mood to study. Sigh how i wish scouting/guiding is graded D: CCAs are much more fun! ME WANTS MORE JIHES!!! hehs i am mad!

Anyway today was the PLTC meeting, basically just get to know the objectives and discuss with other course leaders about the ice-breaker games. LOL it feels like those COH times where my jie had meeting about juniors/activities except now there are guys. LOL

Today, really made me miss guides alot like my jie, all the tough and fun times we spend together, the tuanbu, my patrol-mates, thinking day presents etc. Its not only the 'COH' which made me miss guides also the tea-break with sherly and yiting too. It really feels like after jihe then we go Macs to talk. I think today kind of bond me and sherly together more cos i seldom talk so long with sherly some more the stuff are quite intimate. But i enjoyed it:D Well as for yiting, i think we really bonded after joining ventures together, going for the jamboree, initiation etc. I think we bonded even more than during PLTC. Hmm i wonder why? Maybe it's the activities or the events which happened recently? 

Well that's not important the important part is it always feel good to find more close friends who would relate to you. You know you guys will be close friends when they are willing to tell you their secrets even before they are that close to you. It is amazing how friendships are forge, brought close or even brought apart. Maybe friendships are brought apart cos this 'close friend' isn't that close but you can never know a person well enough cos people change. One thing i really dislike is when 'close friends' lies. I mean its okay to have secrets but just that don't show that you have a secret and lie by using ridiculous excuses. Although i may seem a little unhappy about it but deep down i know that one day if that close friend needs me i will be there even if that friend may not really be there for me. That may sound cliche but i really mean it. Sometimes i really miss the good old day where friendships are pure with no hidden motive, no secrets, no lies, no backstabbing, no selfishness, no need to impress, and we can just say 'i don't friend you' to people you don't like.

LOL i realised this post seem kind of emo(AND LONG ZOMG) so i better stop now idk why i guess i am just having one of my weird mood now so mind me hehs.

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